And because I can't stand to have just 13 blogs posted since I'm sort of superstitious.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ptnj5oD7c4s&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KX_c1F60gqc&feature=related
and because I love this song.... And Adam Hood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9OVMddDUug&feature=related
And because I love this man.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8j1MscRn7H8&feature=related
One of the baddest arse fiddlers in the world Jeremy Watkins...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZrThggCrV0&feature=PlayList&p=3B7E3A3BA210388C&index=0&playnext=1
Lastly, what feels like my theme songs....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1yXJ811jYM&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2TljpmVYe5Q&feature=PlayList&p=3B7E3A3BA210388C&index=64
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwlXHumrGHk
Monday, November 30, 2009
God Works in Mysterious Ways
I've always known this....
Otherwise I'd be married to the liar/cheat/druggie I dated for a chunk of college living in the hill country, probably struggling to get by....
But because of the way things worked out I'm where I am today.
Sure my life's not perfect by any stretch of the imagination....
But if I had married Jackass (as I like to refer to him when I talk about him) I probably wouldn't have accomplished what I've done with my life.... I probably wouldn't have my current friends... My dog....
I learned a lot from that experience and I keep learning more (whether I want to or not sometimes...lol) about myself, and how strong I can be and how resourceful I am when I need to be.
In the last few monthes with all my money troubles I've learned a lot about myself and my family. I've learned to budget ALOT better and be more fiscally responsible.... Though I do need to work on some sort of savings plan still I'm doing ALOT better than I was 2 monthes ago.
I got a phone call from my sister tonight that money we've been expecting for a while FINALLY came in and she's going to deposit the check for me tomorrow (since we all use the same bank and have for YEARS they know the entire famdamily but I told her if she had any trouble to give me a call). Then I can pay back money I owe my mom, and start a savings account, so that a. I'll have a safety net if my checking account ever goes apeshit again, and b. I'll have a savings account started so I can start saving money on a normal basis....
And if I hadn't gotten into so much trouble, I wouldn't have learned anything that I learned and I wouldn't have made plans for savings or budgeting or anything....
So God really does work in mysterious ways..... :)
Otherwise I'd be married to the liar/cheat/druggie I dated for a chunk of college living in the hill country, probably struggling to get by....
But because of the way things worked out I'm where I am today.
Sure my life's not perfect by any stretch of the imagination....
But if I had married Jackass (as I like to refer to him when I talk about him) I probably wouldn't have accomplished what I've done with my life.... I probably wouldn't have my current friends... My dog....
I learned a lot from that experience and I keep learning more (whether I want to or not sometimes...lol) about myself, and how strong I can be and how resourceful I am when I need to be.
In the last few monthes with all my money troubles I've learned a lot about myself and my family. I've learned to budget ALOT better and be more fiscally responsible.... Though I do need to work on some sort of savings plan still I'm doing ALOT better than I was 2 monthes ago.
I got a phone call from my sister tonight that money we've been expecting for a while FINALLY came in and she's going to deposit the check for me tomorrow (since we all use the same bank and have for YEARS they know the entire famdamily but I told her if she had any trouble to give me a call). Then I can pay back money I owe my mom, and start a savings account, so that a. I'll have a safety net if my checking account ever goes apeshit again, and b. I'll have a savings account started so I can start saving money on a normal basis....
And if I hadn't gotten into so much trouble, I wouldn't have learned anything that I learned and I wouldn't have made plans for savings or budgeting or anything....
So God really does work in mysterious ways..... :)
Bo Cox's Rich Man's Gold
I rarely ever do full CD reviews but I really wanted to for this one......
Trav’s Intro is phenomenal, the guitar licks are bluesy and powerful. And it rolls smoothly into Between the Lines, which sums up a lot of musicians (and their fans’ at times) lives. The slide and lead guitar are amazing in this song, thanks to great musicians like Shawn Camfield and Travis Linville, who may quickly become some of my favorite guitarists.
Between the Lines semlessly flows into Carousel, another song about life on the road and how tough it can be on relationships. The lyrics “I hear the music play and I always will…” is the perfect way to describe the passion that drives so many of the musicians that we all know and love.
Send Me Angel is a slow ballad that begs the powers that be for mercy…. This is a good brokenhearted love song that every band needs a few of. Talkin’ WithThe Devil is a fun song. Meant to be danced to and again the lead guitar stands out here. Next up is Gone, with more amazing blues guitar riffs. The song itself has a lot of a bluesy feel to it, thanks in large part to the strong guitars I think. Coming Down is a love song of a different kind….. He calls his love trouble and compares her to an addiction that he’s gotten rid of.
Winter is another one of those lost love songs…. The weather changes make him think about what he used to have with his love…. Winter has always been his weakness…. It’s a powerful line backed up by great slide guitars.
Burning You starts with a great fiddle intro, thanks to some great playing by Jeremy Watkins (also known for playing in Stoney Larue’s band and for being one bad ass mofo in general). It’s a song about getting over your ex.
It rolls right into Rich Man’s Gold, the title track of the CD. Again great guitars, and the lyrics are pretty sweet too. “I’ve had champagne reefer but I prefer the cheap shit still…” Its one of those fun kick you in the ass kind of songs.
The CD ends with a song called Everyday. Its more of acoustic song than most of the other songs on the CD. And another one about lost love.
And don't think the CD's over at the end of that song.... There's a really pretty acoustic song there too. :)
Overall I’d give it about 3 and half stars out of four. Its produced well (by Mike McClure), has some fabulous musicians on the record and the lyrics aren’t half bad. The only think I would change would be the order of the last two songs…. End on a fun note. But that’s just me. :)
Trav’s Intro is phenomenal, the guitar licks are bluesy and powerful. And it rolls smoothly into Between the Lines, which sums up a lot of musicians (and their fans’ at times) lives. The slide and lead guitar are amazing in this song, thanks to great musicians like Shawn Camfield and Travis Linville, who may quickly become some of my favorite guitarists.
Between the Lines semlessly flows into Carousel, another song about life on the road and how tough it can be on relationships. The lyrics “I hear the music play and I always will…” is the perfect way to describe the passion that drives so many of the musicians that we all know and love.
Send Me Angel is a slow ballad that begs the powers that be for mercy…. This is a good brokenhearted love song that every band needs a few of. Talkin’ WithThe Devil is a fun song. Meant to be danced to and again the lead guitar stands out here. Next up is Gone, with more amazing blues guitar riffs. The song itself has a lot of a bluesy feel to it, thanks in large part to the strong guitars I think. Coming Down is a love song of a different kind….. He calls his love trouble and compares her to an addiction that he’s gotten rid of.
Winter is another one of those lost love songs…. The weather changes make him think about what he used to have with his love…. Winter has always been his weakness…. It’s a powerful line backed up by great slide guitars.
Burning You starts with a great fiddle intro, thanks to some great playing by Jeremy Watkins (also known for playing in Stoney Larue’s band and for being one bad ass mofo in general). It’s a song about getting over your ex.
It rolls right into Rich Man’s Gold, the title track of the CD. Again great guitars, and the lyrics are pretty sweet too. “I’ve had champagne reefer but I prefer the cheap shit still…” Its one of those fun kick you in the ass kind of songs.
The CD ends with a song called Everyday. Its more of acoustic song than most of the other songs on the CD. And another one about lost love.
And don't think the CD's over at the end of that song.... There's a really pretty acoustic song there too. :)
Overall I’d give it about 3 and half stars out of four. Its produced well (by Mike McClure), has some fabulous musicians on the record and the lyrics aren’t half bad. The only think I would change would be the order of the last two songs…. End on a fun note. But that’s just me. :)
Unavailable = More Attractive
I don't know if there's any research to back this up but I'm a firm believer in this concept.
Probably because I prove it pretty much every day.
Is there a guy whose for some reason totally unavailable, be it emotionally, geographically, etc.?
I'll be into him.
I'm not even sure why really.... Maybe its the challenge? The chase?
Maybe its that I secretly don't really want a guy to be available because I'm just not ready to commit?
Or is it more simple and its the old adage of 'we want what we can't have'.....
Just thinking out loud here.
Probably because I prove it pretty much every day.
Is there a guy whose for some reason totally unavailable, be it emotionally, geographically, etc.?
I'll be into him.
I'm not even sure why really.... Maybe its the challenge? The chase?
Maybe its that I secretly don't really want a guy to be available because I'm just not ready to commit?
Or is it more simple and its the old adage of 'we want what we can't have'.....
Just thinking out loud here.
Weekend Summed Up
So let's see..... Friday night I was supposed to go see Stoney Larue at Big Texas but that got canceled at the last minute.... By the time I had options I wasn't really in the mood to go out... And a friend brought over a movie and wine. Unfortuately I'd already broken out a bottle of sangria and I was about to fall asleep by the time he got here.... Oops.
Saturday was mostly running errands and being lazy.... Though I did clean the bathroom and get a pedicure. So I was somewhat productive.... :)
Saturday night I was supposed to (seems to like a theme to my weekend here....lol) go to the Firehouse Saloon for Brandon Rhyder and Brian Burke but I heard some friends were going to the Armadillo Palace for Bo Cox. I had heard of him, sure but I hadn't really listened to any of his stuff (shame on me, I know) but I figured what the heck, I'd seen Brandon and Brian like a month or so ago and I didn't know anyone else going to that show, so I at the last minute made the call the call to hit up the Bo Cox show instead....
It turned out to be a great call on my part. :)
So while NONE of the people who said they were going were there, I did run into someone I knew and ended up hanging out with her and some of her friends. Which was fun. And I ran into someone else I haven't seen in YEARS.... Since he played drums in one of the bands I used to follow. That was nice. And the show was really good too. I had no expectations of the band but I really ended up digging their stuff. (and their bassist too but thats another story....)
But I still maintain that Jaegar (no matter the amount) is the debil.
So I ended up hanging out the hotel after the show and watching The Mexican... Which I've never finished in all the years its been out and the 2 or 3 times I've tried to watch it. I ended up crashing there for a couple of hours before I woke up with visions of the dogs (since I had P over the weekend AND Maggie) going nuts and ripping my place to shreds... Even though my place is pretty much dog proofed. (i.e. nothing valuble or breakable is anywhere near where a tail can knock it down or someone can jump up and knock it down...) So I headed home around 7 am, walked and fed the mutts then passed out til noon.
I almost had to do a walk of shame leaving the hotel.... Well I sort of did do one through the hotel's lobby but there wasn't anything to be ashamed of... I fell asleep in my clothes, BFD (big freaking deal) and left about 7 this morning.... In last night's clothes carrying my shoes, makeup smeared.... It was a classy classy moment..... I haven't had one of THOSE in a while. lol
And then I spent most of the afternoon being a bum.
All in all a pretty good weekend. Nothing went as planned but everything worked out regardless.
Saturday was mostly running errands and being lazy.... Though I did clean the bathroom and get a pedicure. So I was somewhat productive.... :)
Saturday night I was supposed to (seems to like a theme to my weekend here....lol) go to the Firehouse Saloon for Brandon Rhyder and Brian Burke but I heard some friends were going to the Armadillo Palace for Bo Cox. I had heard of him, sure but I hadn't really listened to any of his stuff (shame on me, I know) but I figured what the heck, I'd seen Brandon and Brian like a month or so ago and I didn't know anyone else going to that show, so I at the last minute made the call the call to hit up the Bo Cox show instead....
It turned out to be a great call on my part. :)
So while NONE of the people who said they were going were there, I did run into someone I knew and ended up hanging out with her and some of her friends. Which was fun. And I ran into someone else I haven't seen in YEARS.... Since he played drums in one of the bands I used to follow. That was nice. And the show was really good too. I had no expectations of the band but I really ended up digging their stuff. (and their bassist too but thats another story....)
But I still maintain that Jaegar (no matter the amount) is the debil.
So I ended up hanging out the hotel after the show and watching The Mexican... Which I've never finished in all the years its been out and the 2 or 3 times I've tried to watch it. I ended up crashing there for a couple of hours before I woke up with visions of the dogs (since I had P over the weekend AND Maggie) going nuts and ripping my place to shreds... Even though my place is pretty much dog proofed. (i.e. nothing valuble or breakable is anywhere near where a tail can knock it down or someone can jump up and knock it down...) So I headed home around 7 am, walked and fed the mutts then passed out til noon.
I almost had to do a walk of shame leaving the hotel.... Well I sort of did do one through the hotel's lobby but there wasn't anything to be ashamed of... I fell asleep in my clothes, BFD (big freaking deal) and left about 7 this morning.... In last night's clothes carrying my shoes, makeup smeared.... It was a classy classy moment..... I haven't had one of THOSE in a while. lol
And then I spent most of the afternoon being a bum.
All in all a pretty good weekend. Nothing went as planned but everything worked out regardless.
Bloggeria
Bloggeria - adjective, a term defined by the amount of blogging one does.
Usually someone that blogs a lot.
Such as,
"I was going through a bit of a drought with my blog but have blogged so much lately that I feel like I have a case of bloggeria...."
Yeah that's been me the last couple of days.
Usually someone that blogs a lot.
Such as,
"I was going through a bit of a drought with my blog but have blogged so much lately that I feel like I have a case of bloggeria...."
Yeah that's been me the last couple of days.
Dating the Disabled
I know I've blogged about this before sort of....
So there are some guys in my apartment complex that are deaf, and I admit one or two of them are cuties..... (I'd have to be blind not to notice.)
And that made me start thinking about what is dating like for them?
Do they only date other deaf people?
Or do they branch out and date the hearing as well?
And if they do, how do they communicate the first few dates if the hearing person doesn't know ASL (American Sign Language)?
Do they write notes?
Letters?
How do they get past those first intially awkard meetings?
These are just things I think of.....
So there are some guys in my apartment complex that are deaf, and I admit one or two of them are cuties..... (I'd have to be blind not to notice.)
And that made me start thinking about what is dating like for them?
Do they only date other deaf people?
Or do they branch out and date the hearing as well?
And if they do, how do they communicate the first few dates if the hearing person doesn't know ASL (American Sign Language)?
Do they write notes?
Letters?
How do they get past those first intially awkard meetings?
These are just things I think of.....
My Dog Makes A Great Therapist
I don't know if its all dogs or just mine.... Or even just pets in general....
But for some reason she makes a really great therapist (and she's almost free....lol)....
And I don't look like a nut talking to myself, if I'm talking to her... That's always nice.
I can tell her things that I wouldn't or won't tell anyone else and she doesn't judge.... She sits there and looks interested the whole time.... And occasiaonally she'll give an encouraging whine or lick....
It's kind of nice.....
And it let's me get stuff off my chest so it doesn't build up and make me just go ape sh!t on some poor soul later on..... Which is definitely healthy. :)
Now if only she could give me advice about stuff, life would be peaches and cream.....
But for some reason she makes a really great therapist (and she's almost free....lol)....
And I don't look like a nut talking to myself, if I'm talking to her... That's always nice.
I can tell her things that I wouldn't or won't tell anyone else and she doesn't judge.... She sits there and looks interested the whole time.... And occasiaonally she'll give an encouraging whine or lick....
It's kind of nice.....
And it let's me get stuff off my chest so it doesn't build up and make me just go ape sh!t on some poor soul later on..... Which is definitely healthy. :)
Now if only she could give me advice about stuff, life would be peaches and cream.....
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Moving Forward or Back?
Everyone whose known me knows about my feelings about the city of Austin....
I am almost obsessed with the place.
I've thought about moving there on and off for years.
When I got out of college I had to decide between there and here....
Here won because its whats familar and my family is here.....
But more and more lately I've been thinking about it.....
Thinking about the what if's and the logistics.....
My lease here isn't up til like August of next year (darn 12 month leases) so even if I really wanted to do something right now I'm sort of limited by that and the fact I wouldn't have a job in Austin.... And with the economy the way it is, it probably would not be easy to find one right now....
I don't know its just something I'm thinking about........ For a lot of reasons......
Musically....
Spiritually....
Romantically....
And there's the fact I just plain love the damn place.....
I am almost obsessed with the place.
I've thought about moving there on and off for years.
When I got out of college I had to decide between there and here....
Here won because its whats familar and my family is here.....
But more and more lately I've been thinking about it.....
Thinking about the what if's and the logistics.....
My lease here isn't up til like August of next year (darn 12 month leases) so even if I really wanted to do something right now I'm sort of limited by that and the fact I wouldn't have a job in Austin.... And with the economy the way it is, it probably would not be easy to find one right now....
I don't know its just something I'm thinking about........ For a lot of reasons......
Musically....
Spiritually....
Romantically....
And there's the fact I just plain love the damn place.....
Bucking a Trend?
I was thinking today....
Its one thing to settle down and get married and have kids....
Which is what I'd like to do.
Most of the time...
But today I got to thinking.......
What would it be like if I never got married..... And/Or had kids.
It was an eye opening thought process.....
Its one thing to settle down and get married and have kids....
Which is what I'd like to do.
Most of the time...
But today I got to thinking.......
What would it be like if I never got married..... And/Or had kids.
It was an eye opening thought process.....
Down to the wire.....
So its almost the end of the month.... And its sort of beginning to feel like Christmas is coming up pretty quick.... I can't believe I'm going to be 31 next Sunday.... It doesn't feel like I'm that old....
Though today I do feel that old.... Could be the fact I can't bounce back after a long night the way I used to could.... Could be the alcohol, could be the lack of sleep, or even a combination of the two, I don't know.....
I blame the Jaegerbomb..... Cuz Jaeger's the debil. :)
But I had such a good time.... Even if I am a goomba and didn't do something I reallllllllllllllllllly wanted to do and had ample oppurtunity to do..... Argh.
I almost had to do a walk of shame.... Well I sort of did do one throught the hotel's lobby but there wasn't anything to be ashamed of... I fell asleep in my clothes, BFD (big freaking deal) and left about 7 this morning.... In last night's clothes carrying my shoes, makeup smeared.... It was a classy classy moment..... I haven't had one of THOSE in a while.
Thats it for the moment.....
Though today I do feel that old.... Could be the fact I can't bounce back after a long night the way I used to could.... Could be the alcohol, could be the lack of sleep, or even a combination of the two, I don't know.....
I blame the Jaegerbomb..... Cuz Jaeger's the debil. :)
But I had such a good time.... Even if I am a goomba and didn't do something I reallllllllllllllllllly wanted to do and had ample oppurtunity to do..... Argh.
I almost had to do a walk of shame.... Well I sort of did do one throught the hotel's lobby but there wasn't anything to be ashamed of... I fell asleep in my clothes, BFD (big freaking deal) and left about 7 this morning.... In last night's clothes carrying my shoes, makeup smeared.... It was a classy classy moment..... I haven't had one of THOSE in a while.
Thats it for the moment.....
Thanksgiving and Other Misgivings....
Its been a while..... And since I didn't have internet most of last week due to stupid TVMax, here's a couple of blogs I combined....
November has been one hell of a month…. For a lot of reasons…. Most of them in the last 2 weeks. One big one tonight alone….
There’s all my money troubles from LAST month and my attempts to recover ever since…. That’s been a huge thing and still is…. I’m hoping next paycheck catches me up fully and the money from the mineral rights will give me a nice safety net in case anything like that happens again and I’ll also be able to pay mom back the money I owe her. Thank goodness.
Then there was the fact that one of my aunts died… I’m still not sure how I feel about that… I hadn’t spoken to her in years so I didn’t really have the closest relationship with her or her part of the family. So its kind of like she’s been dead to me for years…. Which may be why I don’t really feel like grieving her I guess? I’m not sure….
And there was also a huge, heavy conversation about my birth, I’m still not a 100% what my feelings about it are…. Mom and I went to Barnabys a few weeks back and somehow we got into the circumstances of my birth. She was a lot more bothered by them than I was. And she told me things I never knew as well….. She treated me as an adult, and while she has in the past, it just felt more….. adult. It was nice but being me, of course I tried to lighten the mood with humor, not always the best idea but my best defense against… anything.
Mom MAY have sold the townhouse… They were in negotians last I heard. While it wasn’t my home very long, it still feels very surreal…. (update - she DID sell it, for a bit less than she wanted to but it's pretty much a done deal!)
In boy news, I seem to have developed a thing for a guy with issues…. NOT issues like I used to like, like crazy guys, depressed guys, musicians, etc but a guy who is still hung up on his ex.
And I can’t kick this crush on him….. Ugh….
So today was Thanksgiving and we has our family lunch at Mom and John’s place. It ended up being me, Mom, John, Lauren, Lindsay, Grant, and Baby. Bobby was in San Antonio with his family so he couldn’t make it…. Though he had a place set at the table, that Mom hadn’t had time to take off. Lauren took a pic and sent it to with a message asking him where he was… It was cute. We had wine, mimosas, cheese, grapes, and crackers before lunch was ready. Typical family gathering…. :0) And we finally sat down to eat around noon. After we pigged out (we even had 2 pies, a first for us I think), we sat around the living room halfway asleep, and talked…. A lot it was about football and the UT/Aggie game tonight but we talked about childhood stuff too…. I heard something about when I was a kid that I didn’t remember but it sounds like something I would do. ( as a 6 year old I said I didn’t like Jewish people, the teacher was concerned – with a name like Fritz she was prolly thinking Adolf Hitler… lol Apparently I didn’t like Jewish people because they got a bunch of holidays off that I had to be in school and for a kid who didn’t like school it was highly unfair and I had decided I didn’t like Jewish kids because of it.) So I got home around 3 ish and took a nap. And since neither my internet or cable was working I only got updates on the UT/Aggie game via texts from Twitter, which I learned a lil bit ago that UT won by 10 points.
But the big thing I learned tonight was something I learned was from reading old journals I’d written on the computer…. I didn’t remember feeling that way about this guy…. Well some of it I remember but there are other bits I don’t remember at all…. And reading that made me think…. Maybe I was wrong about how I acted and reacted to the situation with him…. And that I can’t believe I let my friends (as much as I love them) influence me so fully…. I now have a lot of regrets about the whole thing. Go figure…. I based my final opinion on one night. It could have been a off night I don’t know… But after everything else that happened before that night I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions but I did and I have to live with that….
So yeah its been a very…. Interesting month. And its still not over yet!
November has been one hell of a month…. For a lot of reasons…. Most of them in the last 2 weeks. One big one tonight alone….
There’s all my money troubles from LAST month and my attempts to recover ever since…. That’s been a huge thing and still is…. I’m hoping next paycheck catches me up fully and the money from the mineral rights will give me a nice safety net in case anything like that happens again and I’ll also be able to pay mom back the money I owe her. Thank goodness.
Then there was the fact that one of my aunts died… I’m still not sure how I feel about that… I hadn’t spoken to her in years so I didn’t really have the closest relationship with her or her part of the family. So its kind of like she’s been dead to me for years…. Which may be why I don’t really feel like grieving her I guess? I’m not sure….
And there was also a huge, heavy conversation about my birth, I’m still not a 100% what my feelings about it are…. Mom and I went to Barnabys a few weeks back and somehow we got into the circumstances of my birth. She was a lot more bothered by them than I was. And she told me things I never knew as well….. She treated me as an adult, and while she has in the past, it just felt more….. adult. It was nice but being me, of course I tried to lighten the mood with humor, not always the best idea but my best defense against… anything.
Mom MAY have sold the townhouse… They were in negotians last I heard. While it wasn’t my home very long, it still feels very surreal…. (update - she DID sell it, for a bit less than she wanted to but it's pretty much a done deal!)
In boy news, I seem to have developed a thing for a guy with issues…. NOT issues like I used to like, like crazy guys, depressed guys, musicians, etc but a guy who is still hung up on his ex.
And I can’t kick this crush on him….. Ugh….
So today was Thanksgiving and we has our family lunch at Mom and John’s place. It ended up being me, Mom, John, Lauren, Lindsay, Grant, and Baby. Bobby was in San Antonio with his family so he couldn’t make it…. Though he had a place set at the table, that Mom hadn’t had time to take off. Lauren took a pic and sent it to with a message asking him where he was… It was cute. We had wine, mimosas, cheese, grapes, and crackers before lunch was ready. Typical family gathering…. :0) And we finally sat down to eat around noon. After we pigged out (we even had 2 pies, a first for us I think), we sat around the living room halfway asleep, and talked…. A lot it was about football and the UT/Aggie game tonight but we talked about childhood stuff too…. I heard something about when I was a kid that I didn’t remember but it sounds like something I would do. ( as a 6 year old I said I didn’t like Jewish people, the teacher was concerned – with a name like Fritz she was prolly thinking Adolf Hitler… lol Apparently I didn’t like Jewish people because they got a bunch of holidays off that I had to be in school and for a kid who didn’t like school it was highly unfair and I had decided I didn’t like Jewish kids because of it.) So I got home around 3 ish and took a nap. And since neither my internet or cable was working I only got updates on the UT/Aggie game via texts from Twitter, which I learned a lil bit ago that UT won by 10 points.
But the big thing I learned tonight was something I learned was from reading old journals I’d written on the computer…. I didn’t remember feeling that way about this guy…. Well some of it I remember but there are other bits I don’t remember at all…. And reading that made me think…. Maybe I was wrong about how I acted and reacted to the situation with him…. And that I can’t believe I let my friends (as much as I love them) influence me so fully…. I now have a lot of regrets about the whole thing. Go figure…. I based my final opinion on one night. It could have been a off night I don’t know… But after everything else that happened before that night I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions but I did and I have to live with that….
So yeah its been a very…. Interesting month. And its still not over yet!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Connections and Dating Hiatuses
I've been thinking for a while now that I just want to take a hiatus from dating.... Thinking about dating, dating in general and worrying about getting a date, having a date or keeping a date....
Ever since I started thinking about taking a hiatus (the last 2 weeks or so) I don't think I've had so much fun since like college.... Its not all about finding someone and getting into a relationship.... Its about having a good time and whatever happens, happens....
I'm just burned out on trying every method I know of and failing, time and again.... I'm not good at taking rejection.... Never have been.... And failing at ANYTHING just doesn't sit right with me, which is one reason my dating life has frustrated me to to no end...
But on the other hand, can you take a hiatus from something you haven't done much of lately???? Go from a dry spell into a hiatus? Is it just a matter of choice? Or not.... I'm not 100% certain.....
While thinking about taking a hiatus though I also go to thinking about something else....
People (I don't know which people I just know some people say it) that when you find 'the one' there will be this instant connection.... Like you'll just 'know'.... But what if (for whatever reason) you find that connection with someone but its a totally random situation?
Like sitting in traffic and flirting with a person in the car next door?
Or in a store, meeting someone's eyes and feeling like you've been struck by lightning and then your phone rings and you HAVE to answer it and watch them leave without speaking to them?
What if your connection is a missed one?
Thats it for the moment I think... I really need to get ready for work now...
Later.
Ever since I started thinking about taking a hiatus (the last 2 weeks or so) I don't think I've had so much fun since like college.... Its not all about finding someone and getting into a relationship.... Its about having a good time and whatever happens, happens....
I'm just burned out on trying every method I know of and failing, time and again.... I'm not good at taking rejection.... Never have been.... And failing at ANYTHING just doesn't sit right with me, which is one reason my dating life has frustrated me to to no end...
But on the other hand, can you take a hiatus from something you haven't done much of lately???? Go from a dry spell into a hiatus? Is it just a matter of choice? Or not.... I'm not 100% certain.....
While thinking about taking a hiatus though I also go to thinking about something else....
People (I don't know which people I just know some people say it) that when you find 'the one' there will be this instant connection.... Like you'll just 'know'.... But what if (for whatever reason) you find that connection with someone but its a totally random situation?
Like sitting in traffic and flirting with a person in the car next door?
Or in a store, meeting someone's eyes and feeling like you've been struck by lightning and then your phone rings and you HAVE to answer it and watch them leave without speaking to them?
What if your connection is a missed one?
Thats it for the moment I think... I really need to get ready for work now...
Later.
Inspiration..... Or perspiration.....
I used to be a blogger.....
I'd blog once, twice, sometimes even three or four times a day, I had THAT much to say.
But about six months ago, I quit. I started a new job, and I was always tired and I couldn't really think of anything I wanted to write. But in the last week or so I've been more inspired to write again.... So I thought, fresh start.... Fresh new blog. And ta-da! You have A Violet Among Roses.
The name was spur of the moment thing.... I always used Violet as my fake name at bars when I was younger, I even had a whole bio worked up for her. She was a paralegal from Georgia who was always in town visiting a family member....
But now.... It really feels like I am a Violet.... Among Roses.... I'm bit quirky, tend to do my own thing and really am heart am just a bit of a hippie. Though I like to bath and all that.... ha!
But living in Houston, I feel like I'm surrounded by a bunch of trendy wannabes (a.k.a. "The Roses"). Hence my blog name..... :)
I plan to take the lessons I learned from my old blogs, things I've learned in my life in general and apply them here.... While giving my opinion on anything and everything... And sharing what may seem like TMI to some.... But isn't that sort of the point of blogging? To share knowledge? State an opinion? Or just plan say whatever the heck you want to?
I've got a lot of stuff I want to talk about but I think for now, this will do for a first blog.... Don't want to overwhelm (or underwhelm - or just plan whelm) anyone the first time out of the gate.
Later.
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